Goodbye

Saying goodbye isn't easy.

I thought as I got older, it would be easier to let go. I think the scariest thing is change, especially when your the kind of person who needs stability.

There is so many different reasons why people have to say goodbye, intentional or not. Some are out of our control and we struggle to maintain what was once super important.

The hard thing about goodbyes is sometimes we hold on with all our might - everything that we have not to let it go - and it ends up hurting even more.


I think, I think when it's all over it just comes back in flashes, you know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories which all comes back...but he never does. I think a part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen....it's not really anything he said or anything he did. It was the feeling that came along with it, and crazy thing I don't know if I'm ever going to feel that way again, but I don't know if I should. I knew his world moved to fast and burned too bright... but I just thought how could the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?....maybe he knew that when he saw me....I guess I just lost my balance I think the worst part of it all wasn't losing him...it was losing me.